Belief.

Yesterday I woke up with Karen loud & clear in my ear. “Who the fuck do you think you are, what makes you think you deserve to walk across that stage again?” 

And it is ironic because yesterday I told my girls in our bootcamp that thoughts create feelings, I truly KNOW & believe that - I’ve used that thought work to create confidence & belief in myself on my health & fitness journey YET when it comes to my business, I allowed all the shitty thoughts to hold me back over these last few years. 

In an effort to avoid the truth, I tried to tell myself, the business doesn’t work, when in reality, I 100% know that is a HUGE lie, it was not the business. It was me. I was not doing the work. My team grew in 2016, then when shit got hard, when our team team was back down to just me (& trust me, there is no I in team)…instead of using that to grow & move forward, I did what the old me did best, I reverted to doing nothing. I lost belief in myself. I stopped doing the work. I showed up to ensure my girls in my group were not ever left without a coach & to keep myself accountable to my own health & fitness goals but I stopped believing in my ability to help more people or to grow my team. But I never stopped believing in this companies mission. Or the workout programs. Or the products. I stopped believing in ME. 

And you know what happens when we constantly tell ourselves something? i.e. I can’t do this. I am not enough. I am not a leader. Why do I think I can be successful? You can’t keep showing up after failures, what will people think?! I MADE THAT SHIT HAPPEN. I created EXACTLY that for myself & my business. I manifested my own damn reality around my business…or lack thereof. 
I was so afraid of people judging me for trying over & over again until I got it right that I stopped trying at all. I was so afraid of potentially failing again, that I did nothing. I started to think, who is even listening anymore, what I have to say does not matter. So I made myself small again, like the girl I was BEFORE this business changed my life. 

I went back to Ashley 1.0….I. STOPPED. GROWING. 

But I am firm believer in everything happening for a reason. I needed to go through that rough season, I needed to go back to work in an office to see that is not where I belong. It was meant to be that my position was eliminated & I was let go. It is a HUGE BIG FLASHING NEON SIGN right in front of my face that our Coach Summit is coming to St Louis in 2021. #covidmoveover 

Now that I am back to doing “coach life” on the daily, focusing on this as my job, not my hobby…I am starting feel like ME again. I am diving into work on self confidence. I am learning how to improve my leadership skills. And I have never been more optimistic about changing lives than I am RIGHT now. 

I am here for it. I am ready to get out of my own fucking way, to do the work to represent this team up on stage (again) at Summit, with a tribe of badasses representing Elite Nation (hopefully also up on stage), with me, in STL. 

“I will bet on you every fucking time. You don’t need to convince me. You just need to follow through.” That is what Aaron said to me the other day when we were talking about me working my coaching business & also continuing to pay for self coaching scholars each month so I can focus on personal growth. 

Throughout all of this, he has never stopped believing in me or this business. Now it is my turn to believe in me, show up & follow through. 

My message to you: Just because you don’t see your own potential in something, does not mean it is not there. You were made to achieve great things in this life…you just have to open up your mind & believe it. None of us were put here for mediocrity, yet that is where MOST people stay. It is 100% up to us to make more happen for ourselves. If you have tried & failed, that does not make you a failure, pick your ass back up & keep going. I believe in you. 

Puzzle Pieces

On the day my position was eliminated, I walked in the door of my house & I had a package waiting for me.

It was this puzzle. Now, a puzzle may seem insignificant to you but I EARNED this puzzle as a THANK YOU because I am consistently helping people in my coaching business to lead healthier & more fulfilling lives. Not only that, but I am IN this puzzle, on that street working out side by side with the community that changed my life. And I was quickly reminded, I may not have a 9-5 but I do have THIS business, a business where I am not alone. Where I am apart of the bigger picture. A business where we are better together. A business where people need me. And to be honest, I need them AND it.

Then, today, as I sat down to do my morning thought download, I realized it had been exactly 2 weeks since I was let go & this puzzle showed up. And from there, the pencil took over…

It is scary to share some of this even though I am a 95% open book. This is a lot, but stay with me, I have a point:

“I want to do work that matters. Work where not only am I helping people achieve their health/fitness goals but their financial goals too. I want to see our team (ELITE NATION) rise back up. I don’t want to go through job interviews again. I don’t want to pretend to be someone I am not just for a 9-5 that pays me what they think I am worth when I can be my own CEO, AUTHENTICALLY. I can build my business & income on my own terms. I want work I am passionate about. And I am passionate about coaching. I don’t want to worry about how bills will get paid now that we have a bigger mortgage, bigger car payments & I no longer have my 9-5 to help. I don’t want to worry about going into more debt when we are so close to paying off what we have left. I enjoy our lifestyle & want to be able to keep it. There is so much I want to do in my new home to make it ours. A new kitchen, new floors, a complete redo of the master closet & kitchen pantry to appease my OCD. I want to own a property on the beach to rent one day. It could be a space where I hold team retreats. I want to be able to pay for all of that without worry. I don’t want to rely on anyone else, I want to be able to support myself & my vision! But more importantly, I want a team of women who have a desire to help others, women who understand what this opportunity is about & want to work for it too. I want a team where we push each other to do the hard, scary things. When I put in the effort & did the work, this business changed my life 5+ years ago. As a stay at home mom, it gave me my own income, it was something for ME. I saw the benefits financially & I know I can do it again, but this time, I want more for myself & my team. It is ok to want more.”

I am looking for women with goals who are ready to take their dreams & make them a reality. Women who want to take these tiny pieces & create the puzzle with me. Are you in?

Beachbody does not guarantee any level of success or income from the Team Beachbody Coach Opportunity. Each Coach’s income depends on his or her own efforts, diligence, and skill. See our Statement of Independent Coach Earnings located at http://tbbcoa.ch/TBB_SOICE for the most recent information on our Coaches’ actual incomes. 

And yeah I know, this post might offend some of you. “OMG, Ashley you are so selfish.” But if me wanting to build a team of people who provides value to others by helping them reach their health/fitness goals or helps them pay off debt or even pay for their groceries each week…then 🤷🏼‍♀️. So many people, women especially, are afraid to share their goals. They are scared to admit that they want to build their own dreams instead of working for someone else helping to build theirs. So many women JUDGE other women when they actually do put it out there…instead of cheering them on. Don’t be that person. 

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One of my mentors said it best on a podcast recently:

“And if you know in your heart that you’re amazing, caring woman, I almost feel like if you have the desire to make more money, it’s your responsibility to do so, so you can do good, so you can have businesses & employees & clients & charities & contributions that add to what our foremothers created the opportunity for us to do. They did a lot of work for us to have this, & I, for one, don’t want to imagine myself telling them, “Hey thanks, but I’m really too scared.” Women who make lots of money have more money to care for their families & future generations. I think that is the most beautiful thing; the most beautiful thing…”